A Rough Night: Day 41

I've been pretty lucky so far. In the last 5 1/2 weeks I have only had a couple of rough nights. Unfortunately, Friday night was a doozie.

At 10 pm I started having a couple of contractions. My lower back would ache and my belly would tighten. The nurse hooked me up to the monitor and I was having contractions about every 8 minutes. They were not super painful, but noticeable.

I then started to get nauseous and a large lump formed in my throat, it felt like I had swallowed something that didn't go completely down. Every time I would lay down, my throat burned. This was followed by vomiting, chills, and more contractions.

They quickly gave me an IV, pumped me full of fluids so I didn't get dehydrated, and put me on medications to try and stop the contractions.

All of the symptoms lasted until 5 am. At one point I was having contractions 3-5 minutes apart. We were concerned that I was dilating and would need to deliver. Luckily, I was still only dilated to a 4 and the contractions stopped shortly after. At 6 am I was finally able to get to sleep, I was exhausted! Yay for staying pregnant!

This weekend my Dad came to visit. It was a nice distraction from my regular routine and we had lots of fun. We played lots of games, ate yummy food, and went for several wheelchair rides. That's about as exciting as things can possibly get around these parts!

This morning both my parents left. I am super sad to see them go, but I know they will be back once baby boy arrives.  Hopefully not for at least a couple of weeks!

On Wednesday I turn 30 weeks...amazing.

Day 38

It's Friday today, which means my Dad will arriving in a couple of hours. Who would have thought that at 28 I would still be so excited to see my parents? Well, I am. There is just something special about having my family around, I sure miss them when they leave.

On Wednesday my Mom and Em came and set up a Christmas tree in my room. 

It sure brightens things up in here. According to the nurses, I am the first one to get my tree up in my room. I think a few of them might be annoyed that I broke the unwritten Thanksgiving rule, I blame it on my Canadian blood, we always start mid-November and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Emory has been such a good sport these last 5 weeks. She actually enjoys hanging out in my hospital room and she is getting pretty attached to my Mom. Pretty sure she would take a cuddle with her over me in a heartbeat. I'm just happy she knows she is loved.

On Wednesday I had a visitor from a former bed rest mom. She had been on bed rest at this very hospital 4 years ago with twins. She brought me the sweetest care package full of all sorts of goodies, including this beautiful necklace.

I am so touched by her kindness and she has definitely inspired me to be a better person.

On Thursday I had a routine Ultrasound to check the location of the placenta and measure the growth of baby boy. They estimated that he weighs about 3 lbs 4 ounces. Such great news.

As of now, they don't think that my placenta has attached to my uterus, yay! If this is the case, I won't need a hysterectomy at delivery. They will keep an eye on it but ultimately won't know until they get in there.

Last night I started having a couple of contractions. They checked me to see if I was dilating, and it turns out I am between a 4 and a 5 now. Although dilation has been slow, it is continual. If I continue to dilate without contractions, they will just leave me. As soon as I dilate with contractions, it will be time to deliver. 

Since dilation from a 5-10 can happen rather quickly, I'm starting to prepare myself for the inevitable c-section. Ugh, the recovery stinks!

29 Weeks!

The time is slowly flying by. Clearly that makes no sense but everyday feels endlessly long yet the weeks seem to go quickly. Go figure. Today I turned 29 weeks.

What a relief.

Reaching 28 weeks was a big milestone,  and everyday past it is worth celebrating. I can't believe that hitting 30 weeks is a real possibility. If you would have told me that 5 weeks ago, I would have never believed you. 

Up until this point I have been hesitant about setting anything up for the baby, buying any clothes, or even agreeing on a name. I am starting to feel more relaxed about preparing for the arrival of this baby boy, I may even buy something for him soon :)

I am pretty sure I would be lost without technology. This morning my Mom, Zack, and Emory decorated the Christmas tree. I know it's a little early but I am a Christmas freak and I wanted to get it done while my Mom was in town. Although I wish I could have been there, FaceTime was the next best option and it worked great.

Em loved every second of it.

I am pretty sure I have turned her into a Christmas freak too, that's my girl.

Tomorrow I have an Ultrasound to check on the location of my placenta and measure the growth of the baby. He may even be over 3 pounds now, I can't wait to find out!

The Dreaded Sunday: Day 33

I am always glad to see Monday arrive.

For some reason, Sundays are long and painful around these parts. Maybe it's because everything slows down, less people are working, and I so badly wish I could be at home enjoying it with my family.

One Sunday feels like 3 weekdays, not cool.

I had a great weekend. Zack's mom was in town helping out with Em so Zack and I had a little "date". He jumped in bed with me and worked on some stuff for residency, it was super romantic!

It's been snowing outside for the last several days, I love it.

It is beautiful and helps my hospital room feel warm and cozy.

Also, last Thursday my wonderful nurse Nona taught me how to crochet.

My mom had bought me a starter kit a couple weeks ago, but I just wasn't getting it.

Nona taught me the ways, and I kinda love it now.

I had to unravel my first hat 3 times, I am a slow learner.

I have successfully made 3 hats and I am working on my 4th.

The hardest part is getting the sizing right, I just can't figure it out!

Em loves her hat, and I think it looks super cute on her.

My mom comes back today and my dad will be flying in on Thursday.

I can't wait, time seems to fly when they are in town.

Stress!

I didn't realize how stressful being on bed rest can be. Obviously my daily activities are not stressful, but trying to keep up with my families daily activities/commitments from a hospital bed is overwhelming at times. We have had lots of help which has made our new "normal" much easier to manage, but it's hard to explain the frustration I feel from not being able to do such simple tasks myself.

I feel guilty putting so much responsibility on Zack. We really lucked out with the timing of my hospital stay. Since Zack is in the middle of interview season for residency, he booked off October-January to travel to-and-from interviews. If he isn't out of town interviewing, he can be at home taking care of Em. 

This has been our saving grace. 

Not only is Zack juggling obtaining (the very competitive) Ophthalmology interviews,  traveling to interviews, and finishing up several publications, he is also taken over all of my daily responsibilities, including doing everything for Emory, plus managing to visit me on a daily basis. He is awesome. 

If you have ever known anyone to go through the medical school/residency experience, than you will understand the importance of getting a residency. Unfortunately, Opthalmology is one of the most competitive residencies you can apply for, making this whole experience extremely stressful. Top that off with a hospitalized wife and a potentially preemie baby, and...well, you get the idea.

Anyways, Zack is pretty much Mr. Do-it-all lately and I couldn't be prouder to call him mine.

Dads always seem to do things differently too, not necessarily worse, just different.

This morning he sent me this picture of Em in the tub, I love how he set up the iPad for her to watch. I'll give him points for creativity.

As we were Face-timing, Zack was finishing up Emory's hair (did I mention he can do a killer round brush?) and then he jumped on the ground to play a little doll house before they had to head out the door. I don't think Em will ever want me to come home.

It's the challenging times that make you stronger right? 

I guess I will just have to keep repeating that phrase to myself...

Day 27

This morning my mom left, so sad.

She came back during my kidney stone episode and stayed for a full 2 weeks.

It was awesome. 

I can't be too upset though, she is coming back in a week with my dad. I already can't wait.

Although I find my hospital room rather pleasant, it has been so nice to get out once in a while.

My doctors have given me permission to go for a wheelchair ride for 30 minutes a day.

It sure is heavenly.

We stroll down and get a hot chocolate and then head outside.

It's amazing what a little sunshine can do for my mood.

Lucky for me, Zack knows all the great outdoor places at the hospital.

He took us up to the Huntsman Cancer Center's roof top deck. It felt so good to lay in the sun for a while...I almost thought I was on a mini vacation.

I've found that keeping a daily routine is good for my mental health.

Every morning I eat, shower, and then jump back in bed to get ready.

I have gotten really good at doing my make-up from a compact and my hair from a sitting/laying position.

This is pretty much as good as it gets.

Wet hair put in a bun, a little make-up, and some pearls.

It may not be fabulous but it helps me feel a little more "normal".

Tomorrow marks 28 weeks and 4 weeks on bed rest.

High-five to baby boy Oakey for cooperating so well.  

Love him already.

Day 23

Well the last couple of days have been very uneventful. No news is good news around these parts. They did check my cervix yesterday and determined that I am dilated to a 4. Since I am not having contractions, my doctors are not too concerned about it. Hopefully I will stay at a 4 for a while, I am really hoping to make it to 28 weeks or beyond.

28 weeks is quite a milestone for little preemies. Chances of survival are excellent and risks for major complications decrease significantly. Although it is still way too early for a baby to be born, it's worlds better than 24 weeks, which is what I was when first admitted.

Have I mentioned that I have some pretty darn amazing friends? They visit me regularly, help out with Emory, and text me daily to make sure I am ok. I am a lucky girl. Last night a few of them brought me cheesecake and we played games. Best night ever.

Em and my mom came and spent the morning with me. We went outside to enjoy a little sunshine. Em sure loved my wheelchair and I just can't get enough of her these days. I am going to be in trouble when I finally get out of here, that girl will get away with murder.

Friday afternoon now includes a non-stress test. I do them twice a week. It's funny how routine my life has become since being admitted to the hospital. I actually kind of like it, does that mean I am getting old?

I can't believe it's already the weekend, for someone who just lays in bed all day, the time really is flying by. No complaints here.